My Story!

I have been married for almost five years. We have beautiful children together and I would have never known what my husband had been hiding for so many years.
We were a happy couple, looking at my husband you would have never known the "secret he was hiding." The moment we met we fell hard and deeply in love. He was knight in shining armor, my romeo and my dream come true. We had very few difficulties in our marriage. we were always there for one another, we laughed, we danced, we'd sing, we cried and we loved each other.
The it happened, he came to me one day stating, "he had a pornography problem. And he had it since he was a teenager. Well, I just broke down and cried. But, he said he would stop and we would get thought it. And it did stop or so I thought. Come nine months later we had another beautiful baby, who was perfect. We had come home from the hospital and my husband had left to the store. His email account had been opened and I didn't recognize this email. There is where I had found an email from a escort. As you can imagine I was devastated. I then confronted my husband about the email, but he said "nothing had happened". Course, I believed him. A week later he then came to me in tears stating he had slept with a number of escorts and he needed help. He said, "I don't know what's wrong with me, I have urges that I can't control." Now every person is different, but I knew my hubby. There was something seriously wrong.

Now over this time I had gone from one extreme to another. From wanting a divorce then wanting to stay cause he was my husband and I wanted to be with him for eternity. So...o many emotions. Later on the next week he had talked to our bishop and then saw a therapist. She gave me great advice. She said, "just so you know, sexual addiction is an un-emotional attachment." In my head that was some what of a relief, cause he was attached to (ME) emotionally. This wasn't like a normal affair, these women he looked at as pornography. And he never saw me as pornography. Phew! That was a relief. But, now we take one day at a time even sometimes hours at a time. I spend half my days on my knees to our heavenly father asking for strength. Which he greatly and thankfully provides me. There is hope and I know we will over come this and be a happy family once again. And I know you can overcome this too as long as you both want too!